MonSTER...who likes SUNbutter

Do ya ever wake up with a chain of negativity holding you down and no matter what you do you can't seem to shake it? Well today is one of those days. It started more last night I suppose. Just feels awful. I feel like the queen of hearts! "Off with his head!" ugh. I hate this feeling. Every now and then I think its probably normal to feel this way but the sinking feeling just kills. Its that lonely when you are surrounded feeling, that look at me the wrong way and i will stuff onions in your food because i know you dont like them, or that compliments are deflected and taken as insults feeling. Eww :( Not only that but She is sick again. Crying on her bed trying to sleep off the pain...it kills me. Makes me even more edgy. Going out will be great as long as like no one talks to me. haha :)

Well another amazing treat yall should try...On a much happier more like me note.



THATS RIGHT!! Sunflower seed butter :D If you are allergic I am so sorry but then again I also feel bad if you are allergic to Peanut butter too...because I am just a nutty butter connoisseur and they are all fantastic. Almond butter is delicious but my summer time NEW favorite is definitely Sunbutter. Sunbutter on a flour tortilla all wrapped up and yummy! I tried it for the first time this week and i love it! To tell ya the truth...which is generally a good idea...I like sunflower seeds but I suck at the whole stick em in your mouth and chew off the shell without swallowing it part, so they are always much more work than they are worth for me. BUT shelled ones are great! Especially the lime spicy ones! mmm mmm goood! Luckily the sunbutter gives you all of the sunflower taste and none of the hassle! Try it, love it, eat it!

And if you wonder what I do on days like these when I feel like the monster in the closet, or lagoon, I listen to music, sleep, and read happy books like the Anatomy of Hope which finally I am finishing up. I haven't made time lately to read that one. haha. Well hopefully things will get better...I know they will. This is the crashing after the days of happy time so here comes the sun pretty baby

Sucking at life but trying always to seek the art of ,

Patience