So Sundays are great days :) Today isn't exactly sunny but it is beautiful. In fact, its quite cloudy...oooh my favorite! I have recently discovered something about myself that I just have to share. I can be VERY girly.
This morning I woke up at the crack of dawn (well ok 7 am) and couldn't go back to sleep. I just had a ton of energy and burst of random vitality. Needless to say I leaped out of bed and began my day. I started by listening to two amazing talks "Saving Lives" by Brother Thygerson from Texas, and "Jesus- The Best Friend we Have" by ElRay L. Christiansen given in 1966. Seriously, they are great and highly suggest them be added to you Sunday listening or reading. Then I started laundry, made a strawberry shake, and did some yoga. Weird how when I am productive, I am VERY productive. Lately in yoga I have been focusing on core and arm workouts. The core focus comes from my contemporary dance class where we are learning about how to have more control and to lead with and drive every movement with our core. That is much more difficult that I had imagined. The arm focus comes from the fact that I am tired of my "Angell Wings" handed down through generations of Angell women. I believe that I can work that section out and look all the better for it.
While being uber productive and going about my morning with joy and gratitude, even for the shredding of my abs, I thought about and discarded over and over the idea of painting my nails. Eventually I just sat down and decided I would. Now here's the thing. I never paint my fingernails. I only paint my toenails. On occasion I like to use clear nail polish or maybe black on my fingers but I really do not like pink or red. They make me think of gorgeous pin-up girls from the 40s and 50s and I just do not have their complexion. However today for some reason I just said, 'I am going to paint my fingernails" unknowingly right after my roomie said the exact same thing. She laughed and said, "Did you just say that? You can copy me." This may seem normal or plain to anyone else, but to me THAT statement was hilarious. In my home, my brother and sister fight all the time. Both will want a PB&J and both will assume the other is copying. So after a fair amount of debate and attempts to destroy the others sammich making, one will inevitably decide that they will eat something else because they will not eat the same thing as the other. Hahahaha! I love living with siblings. The point is I suppose that while it is difficult for me to accept being super girly everyday, there are certainly days when I will go out a little further and do something crazy like paint my fingernails dark pink.
I think I like it too. I like the way my fingers look while typing on my white keyboard. The contrast is stunning! Unfortunately it also makes me think of weddings. And just as a record of what my current wedding idea is...I might as well let you in on my SECRET! wedding plans. It is more incomplete than it is complete, especially since I still need a groom and a willingness to fall in love and get married. That aside, prepare yourself for the cutest wedding ever! So I love balloons and color so I want my wedding to be colorful, and fancy, but casual/relaxed fancy. I want every person at my wedding to be comfortable and to have a great time. I want to have a mermaid cut dress with a sweetheart top. The colors of the wedding are kinda up in the air but I am feeling a pretty yellow, orange, gray, and purple. My bridesmaids could wear yellow or purple dresses and we will all wear the same color converse (so if yellow dresses, then purple converse; if purple dresses, then yellow converse). The groom and grooms men get to pic their stuff but I think it would be cool to have men in black with suspenders ;) I love suspenders. Then I will have a floral cutesy dress to change into 3/4 the way through the reception, so that I can really dance. I think it would be amazing to have it outside, with lots of pretty balloons, white xmas lights and candles. On each table, have Polaroids of the two of us and other pics of our parents being loving too. Also on tables have a large candle in the middle and balloons tied to it. Then there will be a few pages with a tree on them for people to write advice or for kids to draw pictures with colored blue, red, black, etc., pens.
The tables will be arranged with an aisle down the middle and 2 chairs on the "dance floor". Everyone will gather at the reception and the wedding party will come in, in a special way. We will dance in two at a time (bride and groom last of course) and then perform a rehearsed dance number for the guests in the front. Then me and my hubby will sit in chairs a few feet apart, and one after the other, play and/or sing a song for the other. I will play on the guitar and sing a SECRET song. Then we will have our first dance, parent-child dances, and etc. Then of course after some visiting we will do the whole "find the garter" game without taking 5 years I hope, and then throw the bouquet and all that jazz. At this point I think it would be cool if the bridesmaids and groomsmen did a flirty number, while I change into the floral dress. Dance the night away after that and get sent off.
So that is my rough sketch. I know this will change and I may not do any of that...but right now I think it would be cool. Part of me, honestly, hates myself for even having an idea of what I would want to happen. I am not the type to sit and plan this sort of thing, mostly because I am terrified of marriage. Lately I am becoming more okay with the idea. Bubby is really helping me with that. Bubby is sweet and knows me well enough to take things really slow and steady. I haven't mentioned Bubby before, but to be quite frank, he is amazing. So why call him Bubby? Well he is like a boyfriend/hubby. We are not together together, but we are linked in a different way. We are most often, around 1,000 miles apart because we both attend different schools and I only fly home around xmas, and for the summer. Our relationship thrives on the fact that we are both just fine and happy on our own, but we are better together :) We do not need to be right next to each other to know that we are connected by love and like. We do not need to go on dates every night, out to night clubs, or restaurants. We do not need to cuddle up to read books or watch movies. But we like to. We love doing those things together! Because we love being together! When we are together we are like jeans and t-shirt, socks and shoes, ham n cheese, rain and flowers, thunderstorms and lightning. We are just better together. Bubby takes great care when trying to discuss the future with me and we have decided that it is best to commit one day at a time.
Well, was that a long enough post? Crazy future enough post? Girl enough post? If you said yes, then you know exactly how I feel. haha! I hope everyone has a great sabbath and comments about my wedding ideas and Bubby! :D
As always,I am learning,
Patience
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