Today is my SUN-day

So last night I went to sleep early. I was really proud of myself and happy, smiling as I fell asleep. Unfortunately I woke up with a terrible sinking feeling wanting to hide under my sheets from it all. Then I realized it was coming from inside me and being under my sheets was only keeping it in, like your body heat in a sleeping bag. I got up and went outside to let it out. The warm, moist air stung my skin and it felt like peeling off tar and feathers when I had to come back inside. My thick protective skin had been peeled away. It was in these darkest of moments I feared. But then I remembered to pray. I am very blessed because I was taught to pray. When I finished praying I knew that I needed to read my scriptures and sing a few hymns. One of those few songs that I sang brought peace to my heart and I hope that you can see in it and feel the happiness and comfort it could bring.

"You can live a happy life in this world of toil and strife, if there's sunshine in your heart. And your soul will glow with love from the perfect light above if there's sunshine in your heart today. If there's sunshine in your heart, you can send a shining ray that will turn the night to day and your cares will all depart, If there's sunshine in your heart today."

Luckily these things and warm milk put my mind to rest enough that a few more hours of sleep were granted. Often now I have bad dreams. I remember having many as a kid, for what ever reason...the difference is that now instead of running to my parents, I know how to soothe my frights because I know exactly what I need. I hope that in times of difficulty others can and will know those things which will help them best to hold on and have the strength to press forward in the struggles of life. Because sometimes those struggles are small grains of sand. And if you have ever gone to the beach you will know how hard it can be to get rid of all the sand. I guess at some point I must have gone and brought back a sandbox...but I am ok with that because it is my sandbox and I am working on it one grain of sand at a time. Today is my SUN-day because it has been hard, its burned, but At least I was out there experiencing it and seeing the beauty of it all.

Tomorrow when I go back to that park with quincy and give him a walk I will take pictures because I am curious to see the trail. Maybe I will drag momsy with me so that she can take marco. They have an amazing park about 15 mins from here with a dog park and hiking/walking/biking trails. So tomorrow we will go back for the trails.

Life aint always beautiful, but its worth it

Patience