A letter to Baby Girl

So dearest Baby Girl,

Lately you have been really sick. I am so sorry that I cannot be there with you to watch movies, snuggle, and laugh about how gross hospital food is. Have I told you lately that you are my favorite? I know I shouldn't have a favorite sissy, but I really do. 

Not being able to be there for you kills me inside. I miss you and love you like crazy! Every time I hear that you are having a bad day, part of my heart breaks. It just aches. I love you best friend. Baby girl, thank you for always being there for me.

I love calling and chatting with you. I love that most of our conversations go like this one:
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"Hi baby girl. How are you today?"

"Better now. I love you sissy."

"Oh I love you too. Are you being good for mama?"

"Ya, but my head hurts."

"Ya?"

"Ya!"

"I'm sorry. Did you have any fun today?"

"No, the doctors and mama are making me stay in bed. But guess what they have in the play room?!"

"What?!"

"Baby dolls. I saw a dolly in there."

-Some more banter about dollies availability for play dates, and how mean or nice doctors or nurses and mama are. Then we have to eventually end.

"Well, I love you Baby Girl. Don't you forget that."

"I love you too sissy. Don't you forget."

"I will call you later okay."

"I miss you."

"I know. I miss you too....now get some sleep love."

"Okay. Here's mama."

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I love you Baby Girl. We have shared some really hard times...and some of the best! One of the things I miss most about being away from home is that when I have a hard night I have no one to crawl into bed with. When I'm home Baby Girl, you just let me snuggle for a bit. I miss you sayin, "Its okay, you don't need to feel bad. Don't be scared." You have no idea how much that means to me.

I hope you get better soon, so that you can come visit me!

I have the best Baby Sister in the world. '

Love you bunches,

A